Odd Moment..a quest completed..but feeling unfufilled

In life (both real & virtual) you set goals for yourself. Some are long term, some are professional, some are personal etc. Thursday night I completed a personal goal for me in WOW, I acquired the reciepe for Elixir of Dream Vision http://thottbot.com/i9297 someone was selling it on the alliance ah for 800g/900g buyout. I bid 800g and won the auction.

As you can see by the drop rates on thot, the only chance you really have to get this is by killing a dragon of nightmare. This puts the drop in my view at the same level as a tiny emerald whelpling. But unlike the whelpling, where your investing your own time to get the drop, with the 4 dragons your talking about an entire raid to get this recipe, and then it's only a 10% chance.

Here's the irony, for a long time I considered this to be the holy grail of my personal quests for wow. No matter what if I scored this reciepe I would be on par with those players of old. Of course players of old means from 2004-2006 so is that really old. In an MMO it is but in real life not really. it's just a short couple of years.

But I didn't get it through downing a world boss, I bought it on the AH, and maybe that's the problem. If it had dropped from one of the mobs I had farmed for it, or out of a chest in it's level zone then maybe I'd be jumping for joy. But I bought it with gold from ah sales and from farming rep. So it made it feel like I was cheating. Like I really didn't earn it I suppose.