First off. Congrats to Blizzard on the successful launch on Thursday. It was a bit laggy but on Fenris but still playable
Item #2: Fenris FULL?!?! yeah I got that message a couple of times. It was bizzare, but my server was full. Delay wasn't too bad but as it stands the newest zones are just overrun with 70's
Item #3: Old Friends, New Annoyances: The launch brought back many old friends + chat trolls of the nth degree. Sometimes I just want to turn off general chat but then some old comrade pops up and I'm glad I didn't
which leads me to item #4
Going home: This one is a little bit difficult to post & maybe it's the most honest I've been while blogging.
If you've seen boogie nights, there's a part @ the end where mark whalberg just show's up in front of Burt Renyolds after falling down hard. And he just starts crying and saying he's sorry and asking to come home. And I had a moment like that Sunday night. But before I go there let me explain how I got to that point.
Guildwise since the early summer I've been lost at sea.
After Utopia disbanded memorial day weekend. I fled alliance & went hoard, joined Defenders of Slyvannas. Leveled, kept to myself. Didn't talk much etc.
And it was good, for a while. It was a mental break from the stresses that people layer onto wow.
The mindset required to see end game content removes the fun aspect of wow. You need to be to have a focused, serious, and commited mindset. Otherwise you can wipe the raid which in wow is bad (see time = money from previous posts)
But it was also hiding. Hiding from myself, from the sorrow of seeing something I had put so much time in fall apart. Hiding from the rejection of the major raiding guilds on Fenris. Utopia for all it's faults offered me a home. I knew it's members & they knew me. I wasn't a committed raider, I don't have, nor do I want a life that lets me raid four nights a week. But when I did raid The guild leadership understood I came in with the required raid gear, required buffs, & required mindset. So it was win win, I could see end game content when I had the time, they had a guild member who could fill in at the right moment.
Eventually though you have to come home.
So I came back to the alliance side using the pretense of the wintersaber mount as my excuse.
And for a month I just stayed in Winterspring rep grinding.
Sending gear to my shamen to sell.
It was Tetris Like I followed a path, did the quest, repeat.
When that was done I was like "Well what's next" so I started rep grinding timbermaw for the title.
Then I joined a couple of guilds hopping from one after another.
Leaving when the drama got to much.
But really I still was just lost at sea.
I mean I play a MMO & I avoid people.
The whole point of a MMO is to socialize, to work with people to attain goals
but whenever the commitments got to tight I pushed away.
Which leads me to sunday.
Starting thursday I realized I needed to rejoin a guild.
I couldn't be a free agent anymore.
I wanted to join a raiding guild again, esp since LK changes raiding radically (search google about 25thNovember and their comments regarding Naxx) Raiding is no longer just for people who can sit on the PC all day.
I also was mulling forming my own guild & taking on the responsibilites of being a guild leader. I even have the email that I was going to post on the Fenris forum page ready & sitting in my gmail inbox.
By Sunday though I had joined up with some old friends who were in The Knights who say Ni. It wasn't big but it was alright I wasn't guildless anymore
Then I saw Sno, Who was old school when I was just a noob player.
Sno: who had given me the best advice I ever recieved about marriage. I got it from him the day I proposed to my wife. I remember it well.
Sno: who had lead runs into ZG after BC released so that the lowbies like me could learn raid mechanics.
Sno: my former guild's 2nd in command
& I knelt before him, he cheered, & I just wanted to go home again.
Now I'm just waiting to hear back if I'll be back in House of Paratus. I know it won't be the same but it's where I need to go.
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